A Letter To Myself...

Dear me,

I am writing this letter to save you from all the tough times. I know you never really wanted to move here (Jaipur). Since the last three years all your friends and family heard was how much you wanted to move back. Back "home." Back to where you were born. But various reasons kept you where you are.

Now its all about the remaining few months and then you'll be back to the place you always wanted to be in... But, I know that leaving this place is no longer easy for you now. 'moving out' was something you always wanted... But suddenly the fear of moving out of this place is haunting you. I understand that you have spent some very memorable times of your life over here, this place has started feeling like home to you. But you have to be strong.. this is life and you have to leave many things behind.

Don't you remember how many things life taught you in the last three years... You have lost some of your best friends. Even the ones you thought would never leave. You grappled for days and searched for meanings. You examined your actions a hundred million times.

I know it hurt you a lot but now I want you to know that it will happen again and again. I am waiting for the day when you will realise that you have only behaved with utmost respect and you have only been the most sincere friend.

You have done everything you could. You will realise that the ones who walk away truly do not deserve your love. You will realise that time changes every single thing. You will also realise that some amazing people will enter your life, simply because you will eventually let go the past.

I know there are several things on your mind now and it keeps bothering you. But, I want you to Wait.... be patient, and find out what YOU want of life, not what someone tells you you want, and give yourself time to find YOURSELF. Love yourself first before loving another person - if you don't love yourself, you will settle for less than what you should have, because you won't think you deserve the best.

I wish you find your true love soon... and yeah... True love doesn't make you cry. If he makes you cry, don't stay with him. Find someone who can love you unconditionally and who doesn't judge you.

One day you will have the life that you have always envisioned of and then you'll finally realise that the only thing that matters in the long run is spending time with your loved ones and telling them that you love them a lot. You will also realise that laughing a lot, exercising, eating healthy,being kind to others as well as yourself and cherishing each and every day will indeed pay off.

So just let go... This all will not matter really fifteen years from now :)

Much love,
Yourself...