Monday, June 27, 2011

Jerk-free life

Some days back I decided to be jerk-free. That just means that I made a decision to disallow people with different values than mine from affecting my life. As soon as I decided to avoid people who make me feel bad, and surround myself with people who are honest, sincere, loyal, and non-superficial, the quality of my life shot up many times over. I stay away from jerks, and jerks don’t affect me…Funny how that works, huh?

I have been so happy since I have made up my mind. I found a life free from the mental anguish to which I bounded myself. It was a decision that changed my life, allowing me to see that my happiness was entirely my choice. By asserting myself in keeping away from anyone who caused me drama, I was able to discover a world of things that brought me joy. Like attracts like, so a jerk-free world attracts jerk-free things.
The first thing to admit is that you are the cause of your own unhappiness. It’s not really a jerk’s fault that you are unhappy, but instead it is your choice to allow jerks to affect you..!! A jerk is a jerk , and these types had been brought to your life because you allowed it.
Even I have done the same thing to myself although I knew in the back of my head that the things I was doing was not really bringing me inner peace, and yet I did them anyways because it was what I knew. Jerks came and went, and that was a chapter in my life that I neither regret, nor do I yearn to have back. Self discovery of what I really wanted dictated that jerks were no longer required in life… and so it is...

You must heard of people breaking out in rashes when they’re aggravated, or not being able to sleep when they’re wrestling with an emotional issue.... I don't understand why people do this to themselves..!!!

My suggestion is... Please... Become jerk-free today and lose the jerks in your life. Why deal with them? There is a happy life waiting for you beyond their veil of frustration :)

Some guy tell you he loves you but can’t be with you when it counts?…BUH-BYE…Someone tells you you’re over reacting?…GET LOST…A buddy laying a guilt trip on you?…I’M OUTTA HERE…Your man hinting that he’d like you more if you were different in just this way?…INSECURE BIMBOS ARE IN THE OTHER BUILDING. Stop associating with dick-wads and you’ll soon discover bad ailments in your life will magically disappear

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Loving - Unconditionally

I know that I am tough to handle. I have terrible mood swings and it's hard to tell what I'm thinking. It appears that I'm very transparent to some but for the people dear to me and who really knows me, there is more to me that meets the eye. And eventhough I 'm hurting them in the process of fighting my own personal monsters, one important thing that I'm learning from these people - unconditional love.

Loving genuinely. Loving without the need to hurt me back. Loving with pure acceptance. Loving even if they are in pain. Loving and taking no accounts of my faults. Loving me with all my imperfections.

At the end of the day, I can only ask for forgiveness for the heartaches that I've caused and a desire to be better for the people that loved me the most.

Friday, June 17, 2011

My dad, My hero

Everyone has a special relationship with his or her parents. All the stories speak of amazing dads who've been the bedrock of their kids' lives. I have a similar feeling to share.

While I'm an out-and-out Mommy's girl, I can say for sure that my relationship with my father goes deeper than my relationship with my mother sometimes. For one, we're made from the same fabric and when I find myself reacting the way he does I realize the reason why people have children -- so that they can leave a part of themselves around even after they're gone.

My father has always been my guardian... he became my guardian angel when I was born. When I opened my eyes the first man I saw was my Dad. Handsome, proud, happy and so gentle! In the last 21 years, nothing has changed -- neither the way I look up to him nor the way he looks at me.

My dad has always been an epitome of all that a man should be...compassionate, tough, strong, gentle, firm, decisive, understanding and above all a man of values.
I love to be with my dad; he is the one with whom I have play-fights, laugh, joke, study and hold his hands whenever I go out (even today in my early twenties...!)

Being the only girl child I was always pampered, encouraged to take up challenges. He has always supported me. As a kid I used to copy all his habits be it the way he brushed or the way he walked. We used to have play-fights whenever he would come back from work. He always gave me the best of everything without me asking for it.
He always encouraged a scientific outlook towards life, inculcated the habit of reading amongst my elder brother and me. He is a strict disciplinarian, a loving husband to my mom and a caring son to his parents. He is a workaholic, but ensures to be with us at the end of the day. The time and holidays spent with him are the best times of our lives.

My relationship with him is sweet and sour. We are the best of friends and the worst of enemies. We have several arguments, which ends only when one of us would get up and leave. Despite it all, I distinctly remember that if I felt afraid at night, I could always count on him to make me feel better (even in my late teens!).

As a kid, he would tuck me in his arms, and trust me. Nothing felt safer than that. I also remember waking up in the middle of night once while at my relative's place, and despite my mom being there, I woke him up. He quickly warmed some milk for me to drink.
Whenever mom would take bhaiya and me to our grandma's place each year during summer breaks in school, I would leave a note for him asking him to take care of himself and to come pick us up from railway station when we would be back.
I would feel sad about leaving him alone. However, on our train journey back from grandma's place, I would perch near the window of the compartment and look for him eagerly amongst the crowds. Upon spotting him, I would feel a big rush of joy and I would tell mom excitedly that dad was there to pick us up. It would light up my mom's face, and then a joyous reunion would follow.

As a child I remember always roaming around in my daddy's arms being carried by him either on his shoulders or in his arms.
I used to have ‘the time of my life’... a bird's eye view of all that one could see while being on the best seat available ... my dad's firm and strong shoulder!
Today I strive to be the strength of his shoulders because I am proud to be my dad's daughter.
Love you dad... and wish you a very happy father’s day on this year’s father’s day (19th June in India).

Please stop by and drop a word… I would love to hear from you…

Sunday, June 12, 2011

What Will You Do When You Ran Out Of Ideas???

I often end up sitting in front of my desk doing nothing but staring at this monitor. Wanna start making something that would rock my world, not the whole world, but atleast mine... and still I can’t, i don’t even have the ability to impress my self, because I am out of idea, what am i supposed to do now? cause i’m stuck doing nothing.. :(

Have you ever thought about the times that passed and you think that you have not done anything yet? or you feel like you are never going anywhere?
well... That is how i feel right now, everything seems like nothing. Everything go to waste, there’s no real results. All I did end up somewhere along the line, yielding something. I don’t have any idea, why am I stagnant, still standing on a same place, same point.

I've made enough of "to do list" for myself... but there’s nothing like I wanted, it was over neglected. Frankly I’m very frustrated by this, I want to immediately change for the better.

Yesterday I found in a self-improvement book, that one key to success is consistency. It is very important, and already proven. An example of consistency is 'abrasion'. Day after day, the waves pound the rocks without a break, and over time, the rock is pulverized into sand. If only the waves would have the same feeling as mine, maybe there would be no broken coral.

I am really tired and demoralized right now..!! I guess I need a long break with people I love... because this tension and pressure is eating a part of me... and may be within a few days there wouldn't be any part of me left to be eaten up :(

Friday, June 3, 2011

I'll Leave You Tonight

You can rest easy tonight
everything is gonna be alright, i promise
go to sleep and dream of me tonight
everything may not be perfect, but at least we tried

so tonight

sweet dreams and sleep tight
i've been trying so hard, can't get you out of my mind
and if this is how it has to be, just promise you won't forget me
and i'll leave you with this lullaby tonight

i know that this hurts you, it hurts me too
i wish there was something i could do to make it easier for you
sometimes it's tough, too soon to call it love but i wanted to
yeah i wanted to, but it's too late now to say all the wonderful things that i thought of you

so tonight

sweet dreams and sleep tight
i've been trying so hard, can't get you out of my mind
and if this is how it has to be, just promise you won't forget me
and i'll leave you with this lullaby tonight...

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

My Birthday Bash

There are days when love bestows us
with its wonderment and light,
with its beauty and its mystery, its power and its might.

And there are days when life rewards us
and seems to make amends
by granting us a marvelous gift, the precious gift of Friends!!!

I want to say thank you to all of you who just blew me away with your thoughtfulness and for taking the time to make me know about it! I am literally on Cloud 9 and EVERY GREETING THAT CONTINUES TO COME IN JUST MAKES MY HEART SMILE!

Having friends like ya'll is the most special birthday present anyone could ever have. Whether it's a few quick comments from time to time to say hi and let me know you're still there, or emails sent back and forth, or the phone calls that I've had with you where we get lost in conversation for hours...all of it means the world to me.
Thank you all for the birthday comments, email, cards and phone birthday wouldn't have been the same without them.

And if you found your way here through other avenues, I want to THANK YOU just the same for taking the time to read this… Thank you for your contribution to making my birthday great....I think it was one of the nicest one I ever had. This birthday I got back something that means the world to me..!!! God has given me the best birthday gift and I am very appreciative of all these things that mean so much to me! I couldn't have asked for a better present than this..!!!

I loved it!!!!!
Love you all bunches…